I was afraid to be vulnerable because I have been hurt so hurt that I thought I wouldn’t recover or love another person like I truly loved Saleh. I may seem strong on the exterior but its fluff because when I let a person in it’s a one way ticket I cannot let go that easily.

As my bestfriend once told me every song as an ending so it doesn’t mean you cant enjoy it while it lasts.

I let my guard down and made Majed see who I truly was the"fluff"side. We became closer then ever. When talked on the phone day and night.Majed told me Asrar abe asma3 9ootech awal ma agoom min el noom w a5r 9oot asm3a lama anam.

I felt alive, I didn’t want to sleep because reality was so much better. Life was so good it couldn’t be any better..

Weekend

Asrar: Aloo
Majed: shlonech galbi?
Asrar: Zaina ent shlonik?
Majed: b5air ma damm galbi eb 5air
Asrar: 3asa doom ya rab
Majed: doom mantai ma3ai ana b5air
Asrar: Manii ray7a mokan.. wain re7t?
Majed: 6ala3t 5awattii o0 ygloon eni met'3yer
Asrar: Met'3yer shlon?
Majed: Eny mo wayed 3a9bi nafs gabil wath7ak w abtesm
Asrar:3asa doom chethi sheno sabab kel hatha
Majed: Entaai
Asrar: Tawni adre ajleb el sa3ada
Majed: ee yoba al7een betshofeen nafsech 3alaina
Asrar: Laa Laa shako
Majed: Eee 3abali ba3ad..
Asrar: Shal 9oot?
Majed: Ana shabik online
Asrar: Shetshoof
Majed: Bel montadah ely geltech 3ana
Asrar: I didn’t check it out yet
Majed: ee athy3 wagti feeh
Asrar:Laish et'thy3 wagtik
Majed: La bas chethi
Asrar:Ee okay..ana de5t shakli bagoom anaam
Majed: Laa tensain etga3deni 7ag el dawam
Asrar: I wont ..
Majed: Te9b7en 3ala 5air 7abebti
Asrar:Wenta Min ahla 7ayati bye
Majed: teq6ai 3adel bye

We were officially together a month.He confessed he had feelings for me and wanted to be with me. I agreed but told him not to move fast."Whatever that makes you happy Asrar" So we moved from their.

You the feeling that everything was going so well in the relationship like I was living in a bubble that no one can burst.

Three weeks passed our relationship was content.But Majed wasn’t the Majed I knew I felt that he was cold and aloof. Change was coming. I could feel it. It wasn’t a pleasant prospect, not when life was perfect the way it was.

I was sitting at home bored.Majed was out with his friends. I decided to check the montdah Majed always talks about. I knew his nickname " MC" so I clicked on his page and saw what he was up to:

Cutie-Waai MC wainik yomain ma sheftik bel montadah
MC-Fedatech Ya 3omri kani shlon a'3eeb 3anech
Cutie- Ast7i :$
MC- Fedait ely yest7on wallah ..
Cutie- Majoodi
MC- 3eyooona
Cutie-Fedait 3eyonik bs nesait esm el e'3nya ely ehdaitni a5er mara malat Rwaished


WHAT!!! No this isn’t happening!!

I clicked on the topics he commented on and it was all her topics!! He was flirting with other girls also! I kept reading and reading till tears flooded my vision, I couldn’t see clearly and my body started shaking violently. This couldn’t be happening to me.Why is it all a nightmare!?
I picked up the phone dialed Majed's number over and over again until he picked up.

Majed: Shfeeech!?
"Abee as2lik so2al." I said in a shakey voice
Majed: esh9ayer??
Asrar: et7ebni?
Majed: Min 9ejech!!?
Asrar: Ee!
Majed: Shfech entai?
Asrar: Es2al Nafsik!
Majed:Tekalmai mo ga3d afhmech
Asrar: Jawbni awal
Majed: Entai 3arfa el ejaba
Asrar: 3ayal laish tet'3zal w etsooolef ma3a '3airi
Majed: Wain w meta!
Asrar: Bel montadah!
Majed: Entaaaaaiii min 9ejech 3abali 3endech salfa
Asrar: llaaaaa wallah o0 hathi mo salfa
Majed: Hatha 5arbe6 w swalif w the7ik mo akthar
Asrar: Aha
Majed: Etha ma tabeeni adsh ma adsh el montadah w chaykai
Asrar: kaifik
Majed: Tara mali khelg hal swalef wala
Asrar:ok byeeee


It was the weekend I wont be facing him until the next two days