For the next two week i spent my time indoors enjoying the company of my family and watching most of the movies i havent watched the past 3 years. Fahad was traveling and i havent heard or seen him since the morning of my fall. Everything was quiet and my life felt boring without him, i had nothing to look forward to.

After closing the door I slipped the folder into my purse. Looking up at my sister i said "Faye don't tell anyone! Ok?" she smiled and gave my arm a squeez "your secret is safe with me" winking, before she walked away.

I let my slow breath of anticipation out and walked into the house with her. saying hi to my family i ran up to my room and locked the door. i threw my purse to the ground and walked to the window seat in my bedroom. there was a note inside and a envelope with my name on it.… Continue

i walked into the house with a smile on my face, as i closed the door i could hear the laughter of my brother, khalid and his wife, Layal.

Catching a glimps of them in the living room with my brothers hands on my sister-in-laws tummy.

She was 7 months preganant with a girl, my brothers hand feeling for the babies kick. He talked giberish, to the baby cacooned in her mothers stomach.

"intay bas 6il3ay 3ashan adal3ich tidili3!"

"hahah 5alid bas! its like she hears your voice… Continue

I spent the rest of the weekend with my family; I took Deena to get a haircut at the children salon in Shameeya. She was happy to finally get bangs and get all that hair out of her face. She was begging me for Baskin Robbins, her lips pouting and her big eyes looking up at me. I agreed hesitantly knowing that she would ask for too much ice cream and end up getting sick.



I ordered a cup of chocolate ice cream with hot chocolate sauce on top, everyone in my family couldn’t understand… Continue

I woke up the next morning feeling so much better than I have for the past week. I wasn’t over my mother’s death but in my own way I learned to accept it…it’s what god wanted and I can’t change it. When I really thought about it I remembered that even though she’s dead, she is still in a better place. The house was quite, it was 4 a.m. and I could hear the athan, our house was only a road away from the mosque. I decided I would sit outside on my balcony and just listen to the athan and enjoy… Continue